marlene mountain
letter essay
november 1987


something wrong?

dear cor 11/2/87

I hope all is well there. I was 'down and out' for a while, but am feeling ok lately. Here's a piece about some of the experience to share with you. I don't know how it reads, but I think it helped me deal with some of what I went through.

I've tried to call you several times in the last week or so to talk. Is there something wrong between us? I feel some sort of estrangement. Maybe I can clear it up. If you'd like to talk, drop me a card as to when is the best time to call.

All I feel is that I'm having a great time discussing ideas with myself here in my little Cedar Bar (isn't that the name of the NYC place where all the artists used to gather and talk about wild art ideas and such?). I have to do what I do--but, I'd also like to share some of these things, but don't want to impose if there's no interest or time to reflect on what I'm musing about. I don't know if you want to hear from me or not.

I think you got the wrong impression about my 'pumpkin stand.' It wasn't that I didn't want it chosen--Alexis wanted it in 3 lines, and I don't think it works that way. And I was hoping one of my more nitty-gritty things would be of interest to her. Believe it or not, 'we should have stayed seaweeds' just might be the best nature poem of all. One though, I suppose, has to know how I think to see it as a positive statement on nature. It's that I love nature that I wrote it, and some of the other things some see as 'negative.' There is more than one way to be a 'nature lover,' and to express the feelings.

Take care.


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